I find it so hard to share my feelings anymore. Real Genuine Feelings.
It is so very strange to have a desire to write….blog….express feelings, and not be able too. To be unable to find my voice, to live up to the joy, hope and depth of others.
How can you feel blessed and selfish about the same things? How can I continually ask WHY but never be willing to listen to the answer?
When is it ok to just be sad?
Disappointed?
Discouraged?
Am I even allowed to be these things and still call myself a Believer in Christ? Can I feel these feelings and still have Faith?
I’m asking for and will take any words of wisdom out there.
Naomi was sad, disappointed, discouraged and even felt that God had forgotten her. Only God knew the plan He had to bring beauty from her suffering. Only God knew the path ahead of her. It wasn’t Naomi’s joy, cheerfulness, or overflowing love that became the center of the story- it was her faith in a God she could not see. Share that faith with your daughter, know that God’s plan is bigger than this, and claim victory in Jesus. Know that God’s strength is bigger than yours, God’s love for your daughter deeper than yours, and in His Kingdom, she is safe. Put your trust in His love (1 John 4:16 NLT), look to Him to free your feet from a net of despair ( Psalm 25:15 NET) and wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart. (Psalm 27:4 NIV)
You might like the book “The Gospel of Ruth” by Carolyn Custis James, where Naomi is the female Job and the center of the story.
Get connected with other families and support groups related to her condition. Become a detective in clinical trials, research, and anything related to her condition. Find your voice and your strength- and let God lead. My guess is that He has a great plan for you and your family. Jer 29:11
Praying always~
If God is for you who can be against you? (Romans 8:31) God will give you a peace that passeth all understanding. Greater is He that in you than he that is in the world. There are so many things that happen in life – that is so hard to understand, however we must Trust in the Lord with all thy heard and lean not unto thy own understanding (Proverbs 3) Rom 8:28………… “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
Rom 8:18………… “…consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.”Josh 1:9………… “Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed,
for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
You will be in my prayers as your daughter
Sometimes encouragement rings a little flat. Most likely because you just want to feel bad for a while. You want to wallow, eat too many carbs, and cry. Personally, I don’t think that’s a bad thing – to a point. Don’t make it “the” thing. Do it and get it out of your system. You KNOW God loves you. There is no dispute about that. And no one or nothing can or will take that away from you. God said we need to not let our emotions “rule” us, but He didn’t tell us that we wouldn’t have them, or it was a bad thing to experience them. Cry. Feel sad. Scream into a pillow. Shake your fists at this horribly broken, sinful world. Then get up, Praise the Almighty, wipe your face, and then do the research to see how things can be eased or made easier.
There is this “thing” I do, a thought process really. I try to remember that this world is not my home. To me, this means this earthly body is really not who I am. God told us there would be no pain when we go home. That we would have a new body. So every time I get an “ache or pain” I think of it as not being “mine”. I tell people, “this body suffers from migraines, I don’t” (of course they think I’m also mental, but it has opened the door to some talks about how great Jesus is). While this body is where I am currently “living”, because I am a child of the Most High – “I” don’t suffer, this body does.
Not sure if that will be helpful or not, but always remember that God does love you and all this “stuff” is just temporary.
Praying Peace and many Blessings for healing over you and yours …
The scripture says in John 16:33, that we will have tribulation in this world, but be of good cheer for He has overcome the world. Just take it day by day or even minute by minute. Get up and keep moving. Do something postitive and good everyday. Fake it till you make it is what my boss used to say. It may not feel like it, but God is by your side and he knows everything. Our job is to take our circumstances, whatever they are and make the most of them. Live more and worry less. It’s all in his hands. You owe it to yourself to squeeze some joy out of this life, so do that. Just take it day by day.
It’s ok to be sad, discouraged, disappointed…just keep it moving. We feel all of these things and yet He loves us, He forgives us, He reigns forever. He says come to him all who are burdned and heavy laden and he will give you rest.
Take it to him in prayer. He answers prayer for he has answered mine and I know he will do the same for you.
Be encouraged.
Praying for you my sister.