Breaking Free 10th Anniversary

I have been participating in the On-Line Bible Studies at the Bible Cafe since they started.  We just started the Beth Moore Study – Breaking Free 10th Anniversary Edition.  After our last study…I was concerned about starting a new one.  I really struggled with the format of the last one.  I spent so much time analyzing if I was filling the blank pages right that I forgot the purpose was to get closer to God, learn more about Jesus.

Imagine my happiness when this morning I realized I HAD A BREAKTHROUGH!!!  I was so excited when I realized that God was making sense…that the scales had been removed from my eyes regarding a “Hero” in my life.  My Father.

I met my Father when I was 2 months away from my 16^th Birthday.  My mom and he had been divorced since I was a baby.  My mom raised me….He played.  When I met him I was instantly enamored.  I loved my father.  He was fun, He didn’t have rules, and He partied.  When I met him it felt as if I had found that missing piece of myself.

I had been raised in the church.  I had accepted Jesus as my Savior when I was 7.  I loved Jesus.  I went to retreats, Christian summer camps and was very active in the youth group…Until High School.  I started to stray, started to change my priorities….Boys, Parties, Drugs, Alcohol became my new friends.  I literally would go to a party and hear a whisper in my ear….  “Are you sure you want to do that?” I know it was Jesus.  I knew he was by my side but I wanted to do what I wanted to do.

My father encouraged this in me.  I allowed him to become my hero.  I put him first.  Before me, before school, before God, I let him become the God in my life.  He passed away when I was 25 years old.  It was sudden.  It was sad.  It, even to this day, affects me. 

The only thing that could cleanse me from the sin that I participated in is Jesus’ Blood.  I realized this today.  I realized that I have been holding myself hostage by my sin.  That I haven’t let God be God in MY Life to the fullest.  I can’t change the past or what I did.  I CAN accept the precious gift of Salvation.  God has been restoring me.  He Loves Me!!  Note to self:  Not All Heroes Are Positive People in Your Life.  I am praying that the revelations keep coming.  Not just for me but for you as well.

“Let God See That You Are Willing to Live Up To The Vision.” –Oswald Chambers

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