He was torn. He wanted to come and hear the results but also felt the need to work and support the family. They offered to come with me too but It is only test results, they shouldn’t miss work because of me. I am a strong, independant woman. I am the one they always come to for support and help. I shouldn’t put them out.
I get here early. I sit in the car and cry to you, Oh Lord. My heart is hammering in my chest and my mind is going a hundred miles an hour. I pray for the Doctor. I pray for her to have wisdom and insight. I pray for the strength to keep it together, not to make a fool of myself in there. I pray for your peace to wash over me no matter what the results.
I go up the elevator, 3rd floor. I walk down the hall. I open the door. I am the only on in the waiting room. I sign in and sit down to wait. The nurse comes out with a file and calls a name. It is my name. OK Lord here we go. What do you have instore for me. The nurse takes me to my room, takes my vitals, asks questions, then tells me that the Doctor will be right in.
I am sitting on the paper covered table. Alone, I wanted it that way, right? Then I feel you. Then I hear you. You are right there on the table with me, holding my hand, whispering in my ear…Come to You, You will carry my Burdens, You are with me.
I still have no real answers. I am still off to the specialist. I still must find my peace in my situation. Tomorrow will be better.
Thank you Heavenly Father for Loving me and being sooo faithful. You were there today, you held me together, your strength is what shined through. I will continue to find my rest in you.
Today I need big prayers for me, the doctors and my family and friends. I am praying for some answers to how I feel, I am praying for the Doctors to have wisdom, I am praying for strength to accept His will. Thanks All.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the LORD, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
- Isaiah 43:2-3
I had an awesome night!
Matthew West didn’t play nearly long enough. He has an awesome story about healing. He got the crowd warmed up. He was the only one on stage so it was fun when he “Introduced” the band.
Toby Mac came out and explained the way that Jeremy Camp and him decided who was going to play first. Jeremy wanted arm wrestling, Toby said No. Toby wanted basketball, Jeremy said No. So that left flipping a coin. Jeremy lost.
Jeremy Camp came out and sang his heart out. I have seen him 3 other times in the last year and he has been awesome each time. He spoke about missing his wife (Adie-who is an amazing singer) and girls while on the road, about his first wife, Melissa, who went home to the Lord. I would recommend seeing him in any setting you can for any price. He is an amazing follower of Jesus. He pulls out his Bible right on stage and reads scripture to you. He speaks of his stuggles and his triumphs and he praises the Lord with all that he is.
Then came Toby. Have you ever been to a concert where the stage guards probably don’t know what is coming, they are just doing a job. Well I wish that I could have taken a picture when TobyMac and his crew started playing. They hit it hard and it was awesome. The entire entourage is high energy, bouncing around and just amazing in their worship of the Lord. There is no doubt in anybodys mind that they are there for Jesus. They hit it hard and they hit it dead on. He actually came down into the audience and sang to the crowd. Here again another awesome entertainer that pulled out his Bible and read scripture to us. Then broke out in song that captured the youngest to my old age of almost 40 staight to the heart of what Jesus is. They finished the night with Made To Love You, Burn For You and Jesus Freak.
All in all it was an absolutely Awesome concert. What a blessing they have received from God. Even if their music isn’t your style you have to applaud them for capturing the hearts of youth.
Have you all gotten those emails from your friends that want you to answer 20 questions about yourself?
Recently I received one that was a little bit different. It was 12 questions. Here is the twist, I was suppose to fill it out about the person that sent it to me. This to me was fun. So I answered the questions about the sender. I also sent a blank one to a group of friends.
When the reponses started coming in they all had the same answer to #6, What is one of my favorite things?, CONCERTS!!! I loved that people who had known me 30 years or 1 year knew me well enough to know that about me.
So I am departing tomorrow. I am on my way to fulfilling another one of my dreams. TOBY MAC IN CONCERT!!!!! He is being joined by Matthew West and my all time fav…Jeremy Camp!
I will be extremely tired Tuesday but oh how worth it it will be!!
What is your #6? Please tell me some of your favorite things.
Peace = Quiet
Peace = Calm
Peace = Serenity
Peace = Acceptance
These are a few of the things that Peace mean to me.
The Lord showed me Psalm 34:12-14 about 5 years ago. At the time I had been praying for safety from bad influences in the workplace, healing for my husband, strength to continue to support my family. Those verses offered me great comfort at the time. They still do. I would have to say that if you carry a motto around this would be mine.
Peace to me has become a goal at all times. Peace with my family, my situation and my future. When hard things hit as well as exciting times I seek my peace. It isn’t always easy to find peace. It can be really elusive. I know that the enemy doesn’t want you to locate it. It takes away his power.
I am in the process of being diagnosised with what they think is MS. My friends and family are really upset about it. Please don’t get me wrong, I am not elated by it either. But God has once again put my “Motto” to work in me. I am at peace with it. I am calm, quiet, accepting and have found some serenity with it.
What does Peace mean to you? Have you found yours yet?
