I know some of you in my day to day, others are from my past, some from nothing more than this internet forum. I am asking…. begging for prayer. It is hard to do. Especially from people that see me day to day. I have heard and prayed for many of you. Be it fertility, marriage issues, cheating, etc. I think this isn’t a new issue just one I haven’t had to deal with in the past, be it with me or you.
In October I had surgery. I had a 3 level anterior cervical discectomy and fusion. Basically they removed 3 discs in my neck. replaced them and then fused my vertebrae together. I had a 65% intrusion into my spinal cord. The doctor stated that if I had waited another year there was a very good chance I would be paralyzed. The procedure lasted 4 hours. I came out of it wonderfully. I have a nice scar on my neck. :)
I came home. I felt wonderful. That is what the surgery does. It is also what Norco does. For those of you that don’t know, it is a narcotic pain medication. 650mg every four hours. That is alot. It equals 12 pills in a 24 hour period. I have been on this dosage since October 3rd. Almost 5 months. I still have problems with my back that have kept me on disability. These problems justify the continuation of me taking this medication.
I don’t want to I have decided not to refill this prescription. I have decided that the haze I am in at times is not acceptable. I can get a refill. I don’t want it mentally. I know that over the next few days that my body will want it. This is where you come in. Please walk with me through this time of withdrawl. I know that my spirit will fight hard. My mind will fight hard. My body it is going to scream for more. I want to be delivered from it.
Please stand with me in prayer for that.
I am meditating on these verses:
When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. –Isaiah 43:2-3a
I know that my Heavenly Father wants this for me. But to be honest….I feel weak.